Friday, 10 June 2011

This week, as I heard a song by Addison Road, that is embedded at the end of this post, I realized that I knew nothing about God. All the while, I thought I knew a lot and felt it all, but I still need to learn and feel a lot more (that is the truth and needs to be admitted). The song moved me to tears and really made me think and that is why I felt I needed to write about doubt. Doubt is always perceived as a negative element in our spiritual growth, but I'm learning that it can be made positive!

Job 11:7 "Can you fathom the mysteries of God? Can you probe the limits of the Almighty?

Doubt! A word that we all would have come across or meet often. Doubt is not the product of unbelief but pride due to the inability to comprehend God. While doubt can lead to spiritual productivity as we can strive to come closer to God, if conceived on a large scale it will give birth to unbelief. Although, it is difficult to accept it, we are beings with finite minds. There are mysteries all around us that we can't even fathom in our entire life time. But the prideful nature of our beings, make us doubt everything that we can't comprehend. We have little answers but various questions, not all our questions are answered. When we 'try' to figure it all out, we end up with more questions! Why?

Ecclesiastes 8:17 “..However much man may toil in seeking, he will not find it out. Even though a wise man claims to know, he cannot find it out.”

We are designed to not know! If  we were born with all the answers, what will we learn from life? We'll have no purpose. Our primary purpose is to know God more! If we figure out everything about Him, we lose the wonder. The 'Continual growing in Christ comes from a deepening knowledge of Him'. When we lose the wonder of His word, we stop serving and praising Him with passion. We lose the passion, the yearning to learn and know more. We become spiritually lazy, and soon the fire becomes a just a flicker and dies out. We may ask a million questions but I have learnt to remember that God is God, whether you have or don't have questions about Him. How many times have we read a familiar scripture and still found something new? - Many! We really know nothing, but we like to assume we do. When we can not explain something, we create our own theory that we can explain and that can suit ourselves; many have done that (some without realizing). However, the word of the Lord already mentions that scenario and clearly states that even though they think they have found 'it' out, they really haven't.

What makes us doubt God? His unconditional love and all sufficient grace - because we have never encountered anything like it on earth! His power and magnificence - because we don't understand and can't explain how He could have done a certain thing. God is omnipotent, anything is possible for Him and He has the most perfect character ever! Although we know it, sometimes we move away and are so caught up with the world that we don't feel it and just can't digest His beauty!

Miguel de Unamuno thoughtfully said, "Those who believe that they believe in God, but without passion in their hearts, without anguish in mind, without uncertainty, without doubt, without an element of despair even in their consolation, believe in the God idea, not God himself." I like what he said because, we all doubt at some point in life about God and His compelling character. However, we have a choice, take that doubt, grow it and turn it to unbelief or pray! My Physics teacher says that a school child learns effectively and a lot more only when he or she doubts and asks questions. Likewise, we need to ask God to change the doubt into curiosity; our doubt will drive us to learn and meditate more on God's word to know and love Him more. 

Here are three more quotes on how doubt can lead to productivity and actually encourage us to still strive to learn more about God:

  1. "God is not what you imagine or what you think you understand.  If you understand you have failed." ~Saint Augustine
  2. 'So long as God reveals Himself, or doesn't, He is behaving like God.'  ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960
  3. 'I had a thousand questions to ask God; but when I met him they all fled and didn't seem to matter.'  ~Christopher Morley, Inward Ho!

Instead of focusing on those trivial doubts, we have to stick to what His word clearly shows us and ponder and meditate on that (from which we can still learn tons); we then will realize the insignificance of those doubts and they will not matter any more. A wise man (or woman - not sure!) once said, "The best remedy for doubt is to look back at the goodness of God and count ALL His blessings" I agree! When we cherish in His goodness, we realize how much we still ought to learn and just ignore those pesky doubts!

Thus, although doubts may seem scary, we can make them productive when we seek God's help and guidance. Lets remember that doubts really don't matter, we will never know everything about God until He reveals. However, lets nurture curiosity to strive to know Him more and meditate on His word and just expose ourselves to His unconditional, compelling love! 
...And as promised at the start of this post, here is the beautiful song 'What Do I Know Of Holy?'  by Addison Road:

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